“When you’re out there looking for that perfect person, keep these things in mind - People change, no matter how hard they try not to. As you grow older you mature, and with each new level of maturity come different ideas, different needs and wants. The person who was perfect for you at twenty could be the person you hate when you’re thirty-five. You have to find some one who will grow with you, change with you, laugh with you and cry with you. A person who fills in where you lack, a person whom you can fill in for when they are lacking. But what about the perfect person, you ask? They do not exist. There are no perfect people, only people who are perfect for each other. You deserve to be happy not in the arms of someone who keeps you waiting but in the arms of someone who will take you now.”—
…I stayed up until 6am, which i’ve pretty much never done, ever. I went back to bed at 6, waking a sleeping boyfriend who was very confused, then 20 minutes later we got up and had breakfast and i tried to make him feel better about having to go to work when he’s ill.
i then went to sleep, but woke at 10 coughing up all sorts of disgusting stuff. and i couldn’t go back to sleep, and now i feel worse than i ever have and i’m slightly scared. *sigh*
I’m going to soldier on through til 6.30am and then eat breakfast with the boyfriend and see him off to work. I want to go to sleep now but I know I won’t get up, so I’m talking to someone who is shockingly quite cool on Omegle!
“The best moments in reading are when you come across something, a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things that you’d thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you’ve never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it’s as if a hand has come out and taken yours.”—(via eletheowl)
Right, so it’s 3:03am and I am up, up and online and on Tumblr. WHYYYYY.
I am ill like a motherfucker, with what I thought was a cold but actually I think is more a flu-type thing. It’s been around in both my boyfriend and I over Christmas, and while it hasn’t ruined it, it hasn’t made the holidays particularly pleasant, especially as all our plans for Boxing Day (Trivial Pursuit, turkey, and It’s A Wonderful Life) were ruined as we instead slept the whole day away.
I am the world’s best sleeper, I can fall asleep within seconds of lying down, anywhere, but aaargh I can’t sleep at all, ever, now that I choke on my cough whenever I get horizontal. And so I am up! Brilliant.
C gets up for work in 3 hours, I think i’ll probably still be up. *hits head against wall*
“Your heart just breaks, that’s all. But you can’t judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you.”—Audrey Hepburn | Submitted by: bornonthe17th (via quote-book)
[x] you know how to make a pot of coffee [ ] you keep track of dates using a calendar [x] you own a credit/debit card [ ] you know how to change the oil in a car [x] you’ve done your own laundry [x] you can vote in an election [x] you can cook for yourself [x] you think politics are interesting total so far: 6
[ ] you show up for school late a lot [x] you always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket [ ] you’ve never gotten a detention [ ] you have forgotten your own birthday [x] you like to take walks by yourself [x] you know what credibility means, without looking it up [x] you drink caffeine at least once a week total so far: 10
[x] you know how to do the dishes [x] you can count to 10 in another language [x] when you say you’re going to do something, you do it [ ] you can mow the lawn [x] you study even when you don’t have to [x] you have hand washed a car before total so far: 15
[x] you can spell experience, without looking it up [ ] the people at starbucks know you by name [ ] your favorite kind of food is take out [x] you can go to the store without getting something you don’t need [x] you understand political jokes the first time they are said [x] you can type pretty quick total so far: 19
[ ] your only friends are from your place of employment [ ] you have been to a tupperware party [ ] you have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job [x] you have more bills than you can pay [x] you have been to the beach [x] you use the internet every day [ ] you have been outside of the uk 3 or more times [ ] you make your bed in the morning total (my metal age is): 22
i am so incredibly ill, with what is either a very bad cold or a fully blown bout of flu. I’ve got it all - the shakes, the fevers, the cough, the sore throat. I’m weak and tired and pissed that all this has happened over Christmas. My boyfriend is also ill, and at one point he was worryingly so. I haven’t been able to sleep, so instead i’ve been staying up to keep an eye on him, resulting in a 6am phonecall to NHS Direct yesterday because I was really quite scared about his worsening condition. He’s gone back to work today because he can’t really afford any more time off, and i’m alone with my own worsening condition. I’m usually quite good with being alone and I enjoy having time to myself but right now I just feel so bored and being alone is really getting to me. So I’m bringing my tumblr back from the dead to occupy myself :)
1. How are you feeling? exhausted, overworked, tearful, loved. 2. Say a colour? out loud? Like a nutter? No. (Red) 3. Hows the weather been today? Cold and miserable. 4. What did you do last night? stayed in, spent hours upon hours writing and working, taking notes, reading books, highlighting things, eating hobnobs and drinking too much lucozade 5. What have you done/will you do today? I woke up, did some shorthand work, got some shit news, cried, phoned my mum, missed a meeting, went to my Chinese language class, met my boyfriend for a big hug, went out for Chinese food, came home. Now I am going to read, research some stuff and sleep.
6. What will you do tomorrow? I will hopefully get up at an okay-ish time, get some work done, then go to uni and do some shit, then see the boyfriend and hopefully get some reading done. 7. What type of food do you like best? Chinese, or good old fashioned pub food like chips, chicken & gravy. Can’t beat chips, gravy, and a shitload of salt. 8. What drinks do you drink? at the moment, far too much lucozade. I don’t think it’s healthy. 9. Favourite pudding? cheesecake. amazing M&S new york vanilla cheesecake with strawberries 10. Imagine you’re in starbucks, what do you order? hazlenut hot chocolate 11. Urban or rural? urban, the countryside is pretty but it bores me after a while. i love cities, especially ones that come alive and twinkle at night. i love taking photos of them :) 13. Are you a health freak? no… sometimes i get really into it, and i do like exercising but i get tired so easily that just the thought of that puts me off. 14. What are you doing this summer? errr summer is a really long way away, so i have no idea. hopefully i’ll have a job of some sort. i don’t know. 15. What is happening in the next month? i’ll be going home and catching up with friends from home for one week of it, the rest will probably be spent just as this month has been spent - uni, lots of work, and lots of visits to see the boyfriend. 16. What visual art interests you? i love fashion illustration, especially when its done with watercolours. i love illustration in general really, right now especially children’s illustration, I bought a Quentin Blake bookmark recently and it made me so happy! 17. Favourite film(s)? i don’t really like film too much… when I REALLY think I suppose I can come up with a few that I do love… *thinks* I like films that really make me laugh, and usually they’re the ones that my dad has watched with my since i was little - airplane, spinal tap, naked gun… i also love back to the future (all of them), casablanca, dentist on the job, gentlemen prefer blondes, sleeping beauty, wall-e, lion king, all sorts of other disney films, mean girls, clueless, aristocats, grease, 500 days of summer… 18. Favourite musicians? oh there are so many. it changes every day. queen will always be my absolute favourite though. 19. Favourite book(s)? I also love far too many books…anything by Jodi Picoult, Douglas Coupland, Nick Hornby, Nicholas Sparks, Ian McEwan… I love them all. 20. What do you do to relax? I like to crank music up and read - from newspapers to magazines to blogs and forums. I also really like just lying down and letting myself drift in and out of sleep, though this pretty much always just ends in sleep… 21. What comforts you? Cuddles, sleep, being all comfy under a duvet, hot chocolate, being with that someone special… 22. What did you have for breakfast this morning? fruit & fibre belvita biscuits. yuuum. 23. Writing or reading? don’t think i could choose. I do love writing but then at the same time nothing beats getting immersed in reading 24. What’s your fashion style? pretty thrown together… i have a lot of vintage dresses, but i also have all sorts of shit from new look, h&m, primark, etc. you can probably find me in tights, a dress, cardigan, a mac and a big scarf on most days. (especially as now it’s so cold…) 25. Favourite alcoholic drink? Cocktails! I love the cocktails at Lucky Voice in Soho, especially the ones that come with sweets on the top. At the moment I really love Brothers’ toffee apple cider, which is made with cream soda and therefore just tastes like cream soda. I basically like alcohol that doesn’t taste like alcohol. 26. Say it’s a hot and sunny day, what do you do? complain about how hot it is… enjoy wearing a nice dress with no thick tights. go for a nice walk in the sunshine :) 27. Where would you like to go on holiday? sweden :)
28. Last gig, last holiday abroad, last domestic holiday, last thing you ate, last think you drank, last music you listened to, last person you kissed, last thought? jason manford (does that count?), errm it was to spain, a few years ago… i guess my last domestic holiday was to sheffield, when i didnt live here… last thing i ate was some ice cream, last thing i drank was some coke, i am currently listening to what you see is what you get by good old britney (i’m having a craving for her recently, dont ask), last person i kissed was my boyfriend this evening, and my last thought was that i should probably go to sleep soon.